S.O.S

How do you handle a disappointment?

I handled it by holding my tongue today, take a cool mimic, act nothing happened.

I won't spoil the details here, I just can't. The most important issue here is, this is not the end of the world, this is just getting started :(

I tried very hard this one year, and it turned out, all of them discouraged me. Maybe they just want to squeeze my capability, my source, all that I've got.

Here I am now, with my sad face, full of regret, and trying to pull out myself from this one hell of a place. no no no this is not me being exaggerated. this is me, with honesty. Trying not to be disgraceful.

So, help me God :)